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cum grano salis take the meat
the meat that loves the salt
cum grano salis take the meat
and find there in no fault
cum grano salis find the oil
make make some slippery slopes
cum grano salis find the oil
and pin there on your hopes
cum grano salis take my words
that call you near devine
cum grano salis mark my words
you’ll be home by prime

Trefnepunk stood idly toying with the bar mop as he watched the rain give way to mist and finally turn to a thick fog. Running his hand through his blond hair, he checked the clock for the fourth time in as many minutes. He was the only person in the pub. Even the kitchen staff had left, but as bar manager he had to keep the doors open until last call – ninety minutes away. He yawned. Not given to the ennui most people would feel when alone in a bar on a rainy Tuesday night, he was restless. The blues drifting down from the speakers amplified his longing for company. To help pass the time he kept watch outside for some bit of life on the deserted street. A customer in for a quick pint on his way home would be a welcome diversion.

Finally the fog seemed to swirl, and something that looked like a person was coming toward the doors of Black Lake Island. Tref first thought it was fog shadows but then realized it was indeed a person. He turned toward the entrance in time to see the visitor enter. “Trefnepunk,” he shouted. “They told me you’d be here, but I wasn’t sure.”

“Fabglitter!” As boys they’d been the best of friends – almost inseparable. When Tref was exiled, he had to leave Fab behind. He’d mourned the loss of their friendship for months and daily expected that Fab would show up. He’d all but given up hope. “You come into my bar on a night like this and think I’m just going to drop all my regular customers for you,” Tref said looking hurt.

“What customers,” Fabglitter said looking around. “I thought Make Believe ended when you were exiled.” He’d always hated Make Believe and thought that he’d be free of it now. That coupled with the fact that Tref didn’t seem happy to see him killed his good mood and overshadowed the joy at finally being in the Grownup World.

“When did you get here.” Tref said trying to hide his glee.

“He kicked me out last night, and I’m got here this morning. I’ve been at the Office of Repatriation all day. I got some money, identification, and some clothes that actually fit,” he said turning ‘round to show them off. “And they were happy to tell me where to find you. I came immediately,” he said quite solemnly as he lifted off the floor and came to a stop directly in front of Tref.

“Fab be careful of doing that. People here won’t understand.”

“You can still fly can’t you?”

“Of course,” Tref said as he lifted into the air, spun ‘round in a circle, and settled back down into place. “Faery dust doesn’t wash off the way regular dust does.”

“What’s that you’re wearing,” Fab asked.

“It’s called a kilt.”

“I like it. How do you get a kilt,” Fab queried.

“You buy it. Didn’t they tell you anything at all about the World?” Tref had completely forgotten his own naivete upon arriving.

“They gave me a book about what to expect. I haven’t had a chance to look it. There aren’t any pictures.”

“Can you still read, Fab?”

“Not well. He took the two books away when you left, and Make Believe reading isn’t very good practice.”

“I’ll help you…”

“What about your ‘regular customers,’” Fab countered still hurt and confused.

“You can be one of them. We’ll start now. Have a seat. I’ll fix you a drink. A nice gin and tonic is what you need.” Fab watched amazed as Tref made his drink. “Taste it. It might take some getting used to.”

“I like this,” Fab said gulping his drink. “Can I have more?”

“Not right away Fab. I don’t want you getting so drunk you pass out your first night here,” he said. “Seriously slow down. Have you eaten?”

“Not in a while. The last three meals were Make Believe. That ruddy bastard was probably off filling his stomach with real food while we dined on Make Believe Porridge and What Not Stew.”

“He always has been a fuck,” Tref agreed. “What’d you do to get tossed out?”

“Same as you,” he said sheepishly. Trefnepunk raised his eyebrows and laughed. “Well, it feels good.”

“There are things that feel a lot better,” Tref answered. “Do you want something to eat?”

“Not Make Believe?”

“As real as Tanqueray and tonic,” Tref said walking toward the kitchen. The staff had left him a plate of food in the oven to keep warm. “Fish and chips to keep the growls from your belly Fab. Here’s some vinegar for the chips, and I’ll get you another drink.” He would make this one barely stronger than a Make Believe one. He was serious about getting Fab home conscious. “Did you get a place to live?”

“No. Can I stay here?”

“This isn’t a place to live Fab. It’s a pub. You can stay with me if you’d like.”

“Just like before?”

“It will probably be better. He’s not there,” Tref said flatly. “Are there many others left?”

“Only three. Not many babies fall out of their prams anymore.”

“Gotten smarter I expect. I wonder what he’ll do when they…”

“I don’t want to think about it. It was bloody awful after you left. I swear I wanted to follow you but I couldn’t.”

“I know, and it took you four years to get out.”

“Is that a long time here,” Fab asked. “I still don’t really understand time. Nothing ever really changes there.” Tref picked up the empty plate and glass and took them to the kitchen. He grabbed his coat from the hook on his way back.

“It’s time to close down here and go home. Wait by the door, and I’ll turn off the lights.” Seconds later the doors were locked, and they were on their way home.

“Where do you live,” Fab asked.

“Second on the right and on til morning,” Tref said laughing. “I’ll race you.” They lifted off the ground and flew up above the city. “We can’t do this all the time, but tonight, I want to fly.” For what seemed like hours they played tag above the city. Finally, Tref was exhausted and suggested they go home. “Follow me, it’s close to the pub.” In fact it was across the street and two doors down on the right, so Tref had told an interesting variation on a simple truth.

Inside the flat, Tref kicked off his boots and peeled the sox from his feet. “It’s been a long day for me Fab,” he announced. “I’m going to take a shower…”

“What’s a shower,” Fab asked looking puzzled.

“It’s to get clean. It’s kind of like playing under the waterfalls, but it’s got hot water.”

“I want to take a shower,” Fab said with an excitement in his voice that made Tref smile.

“As soon as I’m done. Then I’ll fix us another gin drink before bed.”

“Like the ones at the pub?”

“I’ll do something different now. I’ve got better ingredients – the stuff to make things,” he clarified for Fab.

II

Tref stood on the mat and looked up from drying his beard to find an equally naked Fab looking at him with an air of awe. They’d seen each other naked hundreds of time, but now their bodies were adult. With the layer of muscle over his wiry frame, Tref could have posed as a discus thrower for a Greek sculptor. Fab by contrast was the kurios  – younger, sleeker, shaven, in need of experience. As if reading his friend’s thoughts, Tref brought his hands up behind Fab’s neck and pulled him down until their lips met. Their bodies moved closer, and Tref felt Fab’s response against his thigh as their lips parted and their tongue’s vied for dominance. Fab pulled away from the embrace. “You’ve done this before, Tref?”

“Yes.”

“A lot?”

“Enough. Fab, does it bother you that there were others?”

“No. I like that.”

“Really,” Tref said with astonishment in his voice.

“One of us should know what to do.”

“I assure you, I’m nearly an expert in ‘what to do.’” He helped Fab step into the shower, showed him how to regulate the water, how to lather the soap. “Did you see me dry off,” Tref queried.

“Yes.”

“Do you think you can do that for yourself?” Fab nodded. “When you’re done, come into the kitchen. I’ll have your drink ready.”

“Is gin necessary,” Fab wondered aloud.

“No, but it’s nice to have.”

“I like gin,” Fab said with glee.

“I thought you would.”

Half and hour later Fab entered the kitchen. “I used a comb I found in the shower room. Is that alright.”

“Yes. It’s fine. Here’s your gin drink. I made it with honey and lime.”

“Lime…”

“You’ll like it I promise,” Tref answered. He watched as Fab tasted the drink.

“It’s better than the last,” he exclaimed. “I want…” Tref quieted him by placing his mouth over his friend’s. “That’s a thimble isn’t it?”

“He called it a thimble. It’s called a kiss here.”

“I don’t care what it’s called; I like it Tref,” he said looking at Tref with confusion on his face. “What are those?”

“On my arms, are tattoos,” Tref explained. “These are piercings,” he said pointing to his nipples. “You can touch them if you like.” Fab ran his hands across Tref’s shoulders and upper arms, then moved down to his pecs to feel the barbells through his nipples.

“Do they hurt?”

“To get, but not now,” I told him.

“I want some,” Fab declared taking a long drink of his gin drink.

“Maybe this weekend…”

“Not bloody Make Believe either,” Fab complained. “I’m tired of Make Believe.”

“Alright,” Tref said. “What’s all this about Make Believe?”

“Your bloody ‘regular customers.’”

“I do have regular customers. They just weren’t there tonight.”

“No one was.”

“Fab, I know that. I was there. Be nice. I haven’t seen you in a long time.”

“You didn’t come back for me.”

“Because you can’t Fab. Once you live here you can’t go back there. You can fly as long as you keep in practice, but you can’t go back there. I tried it one time and was lost for three days. You didn’t come to me either Fab. I waited.”

“You waited for me?”

“Yes. Then tonight you show up, and…” his words were cut off my Fab grabbing him and giving him a thimble. It was full of hunger and passion that had been pent up in Fab for months. Tref had been able to express his lust and learn from masters of the concupiscent arts, but Fab trapped between boy and man had only known what he could discover on his own. Now the fruition of his desire came shooting out like a stream of champagne from a shaken bottle. Fab broke away filled with a satisfied guilt showing plainly on his face. Tref took a moment to regain his composure and his breath. “I guess you’re ready,” he said picking Fab up and carrying him to the bedroom. “I’ll teach you things you never even dreamed existed.”

The Sun came through the window and Fab untangled himself from Tref’s embrace. He’d learned many things last night, but he knew there was more Tref could teach him. “Wake up Tref,” he commanded petulantly.

“Fab,” Tref groaned with a smile and sat up to kiss Fab. “I’ll fix us breakfast in a minute,” he said placing a thimble on Fab’s lips. “Then we can go out and explore.”

All this happened ages ago, but Tref and Fab still explore everyday, and that’s what keeps us young.

Some girls are content to don their Sunday frocks and sit in low chairs at diminutive tables and serve tepid cups of air-tea from their miniature tea services to their dolls. Zillah was not one of those girls. To be sure Zillah had one of the finest tea services in the county – a sterling silver affair flush with hallmarks and coats of arms that no doubt had been brought back from the Cave of Spleen. Zillah chose to set her tea parties out Restoration style – bottles of amontillado, port, and, her personal favorite, dry gin. It had the most magnificent burn going down, and, to her mind anyway, it released la fae vert better than absinthe. Her parties with the nymphs, as she called her china dolls, were initially on Sunday afternoons after church. God Himself needed a swig (probably of whiskey) after one of Parson’s patronizingly pedantic homilies.

Soon enough, she expanded to Thursdays for her ‘at home.’ Before you could say “gin fizz” she was a full on courtisane with a saloon, er, salon daily from two to six. The conversations were stimulating: the anthropological merits of noughts and crosses; the spiritual well being of the nursery horse. It was all so fascinating. Then she got word.

James’ best toy soldier friend Lieutenant Brandywine was coming home, unscathed, from the Front. The party was splendid. Everyone who was anyone was there. It must be admitted that Raggedy Anne gate crashed. It was  smashing success by all counts. Until it happened anyway. Well into her sixth double martini, Zillah decided she needed a nap. She lay down on the child sized velvet davenport and found the Big Sleep.

As ever with my sincere gratitude to Mr. Gorey.

i’d only been waiting an aeon or two
when he waltzed through the door
a hint of sandalwood
in his flame red hair
the path to heaven in haint blue eyes
and that fuck me grin on his face
with a grande pas de deux
and an apache or two
we shot rapids in an easy chair
met our treffpunkt in kathmandu
took greek fire on ice
woke dreams through the Night
and howled like jack’s wolves at the sun

my daemons and my angels
step a danse macabre
not for my immortal soul
do they shed tears and sob
but for this life on earth
they surely understand
don’t trade uncertain tomorrow
for what is sure at hand

my daemons and my angels
danced long into the night
the angels brought on darkness
to the daemons omnipresent light
the angels thought it funny
to atone for all their sins
by doing their fouette
upon the heads of pins
then beside the octagon
the daemons tended bar
they served me clean martinis
and fine cuban cigars
jack may be nimble
but never is he quick
one more gin martini though
and jack will be quite sick
when enough i’d had my fill
decided to call it quits
my angels and my daemons
threw a hellish fit
it’s all in moderation
my angels said to me
all play and no work
makes jack fun company
my daemons said they understood
and carried me to bed
they lay me down on silken sheets
gave a powder for my head
and then they took the angels
out for some more fun
like some urbane vampire
jack’s will sleep with rising sun

Happy Valentine’s Day

It’s interesting sort of getting to know a bar keep when he’s on your side of the bar.

So, I meet up with The Artist this evening. “I think I’ll start with the worst part and work my way over,” he said after shaving my chest. I hate that part. It doesn’t hurt, but it makes me feel like a boi, and I’m Bear. But I digress. He gave me an ointment he wants me to use. I’m not trying to keep plastice wrap on it as he suggests. I’m fairly certain it won’t stay. However, I do grease my dragon five times a day — even in the restroom at work. He did say that he’s found with people he tattoos a lot, there’s always one that’s problematic. Hopefully it’s the only one that’s going to be a pain. : )= It takes about twenty mintues to do the fill in work, and he doesn’t charge me a cent. So, I reached into my pocket and pulled out a deposit for the beefcake on my right hip. We’ve even set the date.

The appointment’s about six weeks out. He’s going to work on some designs, and closer to the date, he’ll send me a drawing to look at before I go in for the tattoo. I can hardly wait!

I’m sitting in my living room on a cold, dark, snowy night dreaming of Carnivale in Venice — circa 1590. It’s highly romanticized I know, but still a Bear can dream. Give me a minute, and I’ll put on the Baroque opera and pour us a nice glass of wine.

I’m always like that at this time of year. There’s something magickal and seductive in the night, but when you combine the draw of and wonder of the cold and snow with the energy of Mardi Gras, it takes on a different feel completely.

The Saints win on Sunday, my upcoming vacation, a planned tattoo (yes another one), up coming plays…they all lead me to a child like excitement. And with some recent wins it looks like my luck is changing. Dum Spiro Spero has long been a mantra — along side Laissez les bon temps rouler of course. ; )=

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